Let Change Happen
diva, let's dish 💋
Diva let’s dish, I made a big change and the girls are quaking. By girls, I mean the brain cells I have left. I moved across the country, with a vision board, a baconeggncheese, and a dream. It’s a big leap to be a bicoastal baddie but what is life even about if it isn’t taking chances on yourself. I kept asking myself if I’d be proud of myself in the future if I did this and I kept thinking about when I graduated college during a pandemic.
Don’t do too much math now, but I graduated from college in 2020, yeah diva. I went to school upstate New York and I stayed up there throughout the summer that followed my last semester of school.
During that time, I saw my hometown (Queens) become the epicenter of COVID. Scary shit was happening, trucks of people no longer living - just waiting outside Elmhurst Hospital waiting to be buried without families being able to say goodbye, images that will never leave my mind. My graduation had been canceled, the literal biggest thing that happens to most people in their lives, and I asked myself if I died tomorrow, would I be happy about what I was doing with my life or would I be regretful. And me? I live my life with no ragrets, boots. So I decided that day to finally pursue comedy, acting and writing the way I’d wanted to for years.
Flash forward, a bunch of stuff in the universe aligned, and I got an opportunity to venture across the country (NY to LA), I thought once again - would I be proud if I died tomorrow. Would I ever have ragrets about not taking the leap of faith? Once I asked myself that, I started getting comfortable for spending $7 for matcha (but you can do that on both coasts, yay!)
This shit not easy though. When people ask me what I like most about the sunny city, I can only truthfully say - the sunniness of the city, cause I’m not a fake bitch! But I also love all the changes I’ve been forced to adapt to. No one forced me - just my whole triple Leo vibe and regular human development. Girl, I can literally feel my frontal lobe getting stronger and stronger after every lesson I learn.
Dawg, why is it so hard to change your habits?? My therapist once told me that our brain has different roads, and when you react to something, your brain goes down the path that it always goes down, because it’s something we can recognize and understand. It’s safe. Trying to carve out a new path is one of the hardest things to do, I guess that’s why they say “ if it was easy, everyone would do it” and I can tell you hoes not really doing the work.
These daunting adjustments remind me of Shrek, my favorite character and lifepath guide. He had to change himself from his isolating processing ways, his go-to ogre attitude. He let go of his patterns and then gained so much love, friendship, purpose and his swamp back. Be like Shrek and I, make sure you are continuing to grow or else you’ll just be in your lonely ass swamp forever.
If you like me talking my shit, you’d also love my podcast. I poured so much love and effort into it and it’s something that I had to believe in myself because nobody was going to believe in it before me.
Diva, let changes happen by:
Doing scary things by yourself
Tapping into your inner child and letting them guide you
Visualizing the person you want to become
Like always, live, laugh, love diva.
Let’s dish next month, for real this time.💋